I don’t even know this is going to start… First off, this cold weather aint helping this flu-like systems I have. The lack of energy to just get by today was already hard enough, and now I’m put in position where I don’t even know where I stand. It’s like I felt I was going forward, doing what God has called me to do, then I get side-blinded out of nowhere. 

Where do I stand now? God calls me to go forward but I feel like I’m being held to ground when I try to get up.

I had so much going on with this and now I feel like that might just be taken away. I don’t know right. God, I lay it all to you. I put my trust in you even though it’s extremely hard for me at this moment. SPEAK to me. GUIDE me Lord. I need you now more than ever.